I just got back from urgent care with Caroline. It seems she has some kind of weird rash. It will go away, and isn't anything life threatening or crazy like chicken pox or measels. The rest of us most-likely will not get it. "It's just something kids get." said the doctor.
"What?" I thought...
Kids get numerous runny noses, colds, splinters, and (apparently) rashes in their little lives. It's just something that happens. As I was was driving home, the doctor's words kept resonating in my thoughts and I began to wonder.
Does God think this about us, His children? When we sin, does God think, "Another one of my children stumbled, it's just what they do." I'm not sure why I thought that.
The nurse took us to a room and after she took Caroline's vitals, we waited for the doctor to come in. I was thinking... as Caroline's mother, all I wanted to do was take away her "itchies" and make her feel better. I ached as I sat in the room waiting for the doctor to come in, watching sleepy-eyed Caroline tell me she was scared. She gets scared easily these days, and is afraid of most things little girls are afraid of (like spiders and the dark), as well as things most little girls don't have to think about (another post on that later). As I rubbed her back, I prayed that this wasn't going to be a big deal. I remember taking her to the doctor for a bruised foot last year and finding out she had kohler disease--that was a huge deal. I was praying this wasn't going to be another big "to-do".
It wasn't a big deal, but I was glad I took her just to be sure. We stopped for an ice-cream cone on the way home. I told her she was brave and that I was proud of her. We talked about how there was nothing to be scared about. She agreed that she had worried for "no reason at all". I explained that God tells us that worrying is a sin, and it only hurts our heart. I asked her how it made her feel to worry and she said she wanted to cry.
I wonder if God cries when we sin? Does he look at us like I look at my precious Caroline? I think he probably does.
Lord, forgive me when I don't trust you. Forgive me when I sin and worry about things I have no control over.
From rashes to worrying...
I promise to trust you, Lord.