We had a little nativity scene that I used to get out every
year. It was some sort of resin or
plaster-like material. The kiddos played
with it, and loved pretending with the bible characters. Last year, when I put up the manger scene
after Christmas, I realized the shepherd was missing. I thought he would show up but alas, I never
found him. Fast forward 11 months. I took the vacuum out to the car to clean it out,
after a nameless person filled the back with hay that we had to have for a
certain birthday party. Anyway, hay was
everywhere. I laid down the seat to vacuum. Oh, to my surprise what I found! There
was the lonesome shepherd! I’m sure this little shepherd got loaded into
the car by some tiny hands, and never made it out. He is missing both hands, his shepherd's staff, and he is all
alone. No Mary, Joseph, or even Baby Jesus to keep him company. However, after loosing every
single Christmas decoration I had to keep him.
You may think I’m nuts that I didn’t just toss him into the garbage with
all that hay. He now sits on top of my
desk in the dining room. I love
him. I think I shall pack him up with
the Christmas stuff every year, and he shall come out once a year. “Why?” You ask. To remind us of another promise God has for
us.
With the most recent events at Shady Hook Elementary school
in Newtown CT, I have been resting in Psalm 91.
“He who dwells in the
shelter of the Most High
will rest in the
shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the
Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I
trust.”
Surely he will save
you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly
pestilence.
He will cover you
with his feathers,
and under his wings
you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will
be your shield and rampart." Psalm 91:1-4
I can’t help but imagine the thoughts that go through the
minds of those mommies who lost their precious babes last Friday. My precious son is 6, and I cannot comprehend
how empty their hearts must be tonight.
How can they possibly function, sleep, or eat. Then I remember how I felt after our
fire. Even though our experiences aren’t
the same, I remember not tasting food, or sleeping, or wanting to
function. I just did. I rested in the fact that God still had a
plan and purpose for my life. Regardless
of how I felt, I had to trust him.
Today, as I kissed my son and sent him to school, I
immediately put myself into those mother’s places. “What if this is the last time I see him? NO! I
will not flood my mind with fear!” Each
morning, whether Tony or I walk Tobin to school, we pray for him. We
pray for him to be a light to others who may not know the love of Christ, for
him to make good choices, and for God to protect him. After
I said goodbye this morning, I opened my
bible and read Psalm 91 again. His
warmth and peace and Joy came flooding back to me. I will keep this little shepherd because when
I see his little lonesome self, I will remember how God scoops in, picks us up,
and hides us in the shadow of his wings. He is MY refuge and MY strength, and I
will TRUST in Him!
I will not try to manufacture hands either. He is perfect the way he is, because even his broken hands remind me why I need the Lord. Just like that little shepherd, we are all hurting, lonely, and incomplete without Jesus in our lives.
My prayers are with all the victims of the Shady Hook
tragedy. May you find peace and Joy that
only our Savior can bring to you this Christmas season.
